Renewed Interest

Well it's been a while since I last posted here. A lot has happened in my life and I haven't made much progress in my weight loss quest. I found out last week that my girlfriend and I will be going to a friend's wedding in Cancun this coming April. That gives me 9 months to lose at least 50 pounds. I know its possible but its not going to be easy.

I've already cut back heavily on fast food and have cut my daily caloric intake by at least 900 calories. I'm going to see if I can keep this up for a couple more weeks and then make another small cut. I will also be going for walks at work during the few breaks I get/take.

It must be a sign

So I'm at work and I had my lasagna for lunch a couple of hours ago but now I'm hungry again. I go down to the vending machines (which I rarely do) and I grab myself a Diet Coke and try to get a bag of Sun Chips. Unfortunately the machine wouldn't take my money. The soda machine took it just fine but not the food machine. It must be a sign. So now I'm sitting here fairly hungry and thinking about what I should have for dinner.

Superbowl Splurge

So last night was the Superbowl. Probably one of the best football games I've ever seen. In years past I've usually cooked a giant steak, a massive baked potato, and snacked on other junk during the game. This year I was a little more sensible but still ate way too much.

We decided we were going to have frozen pizzas for dinner last night. I had 3 pieces, which isn't bad really at least for me. But we also decided to get some snack/finger foods for the girls and the two of us. We had jalapeño poppers, mozzarella sticks, taquitos, and chicken wings. Ugh... I only had one of the poppers and I didn't touch the sticks, but I had my fair share of taquitos and wings. I absolutely despised the way I felt afterward.

Mark my words, that was the last time I will gorge myself to that extent.

Might as well start now

I just turned 30 not too long ago and I'm about as out of shape as I can get. I have heart and cholesterol issues which require me to take 100mg of Toprol and 40mg of Lipitor daily. I'm 5'10" and weight over 260 pounds; 7 years ago I weighed 220 pounds and was probably in the best shape I've been in since high school.

Basically I eat way too damned much and I get next to no exercise. I can't stand the way I look, especially in pictures for some reason. Maybe it's just some weird mental thing with myself but I think I look way better in the mirror than I do in a picture. I wont go swimming with my girlfriend and her kids because I can't stand the way I look. It's effected our life in the bedroom too as my sex drive has diminished quite a bit in the past year or so.

I'm not trying to make excuses for myself. I love food. I don't know if I like the taste of food more of the full feeling after I eat. Usually I gorge myself until I feel sick and then I get upset with myself about why I let myself eat that much. Maybe all this goes back to when I was a kid. My dad was the, "You can't leave the table until you clear your plate" kind of person. I can understand why one would mandate that but over time it conditions kids to continue eating past the point of where they are full.

Even though I have a great job, it forces me to sit most of the day in front of a computer or in meetings all day. Also my days are relatively hectic so I don't get much time to eat and my eating times aren't all that consistent when I'm at work. I usually end up eating fast food for lunch; yeah I know REAL healthy. I'm honestly not that much of a fast food person but what can I say, I know it's not good for me and I know I need to stop doing it but up until now I haven't.

Over time I will post pictures of where I'm currently at and how I'm progressing. I'll try to keep this thing updated as much as I can. I honestly don't care how many people read this; it's mainly just a log for myself of my progress and something that I can look back on for reference of good times and rough ones along the way.