Might as well start now

I just turned 30 not too long ago and I'm about as out of shape as I can get. I have heart and cholesterol issues which require me to take 100mg of Toprol and 40mg of Lipitor daily. I'm 5'10" and weight over 260 pounds; 7 years ago I weighed 220 pounds and was probably in the best shape I've been in since high school.

Basically I eat way too damned much and I get next to no exercise. I can't stand the way I look, especially in pictures for some reason. Maybe it's just some weird mental thing with myself but I think I look way better in the mirror than I do in a picture. I wont go swimming with my girlfriend and her kids because I can't stand the way I look. It's effected our life in the bedroom too as my sex drive has diminished quite a bit in the past year or so.

I'm not trying to make excuses for myself. I love food. I don't know if I like the taste of food more of the full feeling after I eat. Usually I gorge myself until I feel sick and then I get upset with myself about why I let myself eat that much. Maybe all this goes back to when I was a kid. My dad was the, "You can't leave the table until you clear your plate" kind of person. I can understand why one would mandate that but over time it conditions kids to continue eating past the point of where they are full.

Even though I have a great job, it forces me to sit most of the day in front of a computer or in meetings all day. Also my days are relatively hectic so I don't get much time to eat and my eating times aren't all that consistent when I'm at work. I usually end up eating fast food for lunch; yeah I know REAL healthy. I'm honestly not that much of a fast food person but what can I say, I know it's not good for me and I know I need to stop doing it but up until now I haven't.

Over time I will post pictures of where I'm currently at and how I'm progressing. I'll try to keep this thing updated as much as I can. I honestly don't care how many people read this; it's mainly just a log for myself of my progress and something that I can look back on for reference of good times and rough ones along the way.